Purpose

Purpose: 1. the reason for which something exists or is done, made, used, etc.
2. an intended or desired result; end; aim; goal. 3. determination; resoluteness.
4. the subject in hand; the point at issue. 5. practical result, effect, or advantage: to act to good purpose. –verb (used with object)
6. to set as an aim, intention, or goal for oneself. 7. to intend; design.
8. to resolve (to do something): He purposed to change his way of life radically

How many times have I asked God what my purpose in life is? And how many times have I gotten different answers? I believe God's ultimate purpose for us is to be his child and eventually spend eternity with him.......but I also believe he has many other purposes for us, depending on where we are in our earthly walk of life.

I am currently dealing with a very frustrating situation in my work and wish I could tell some people how incompetent, sexist, demeaning and lacking they are.......but it's hard to say that to management! I fight with whether I'm where God wants me, wants to use me and teach me........or if I should just "get the hell out of dodge!" Once a decision can be made here, then a decision will be made on whether we continue to list the house and try to move south, or stay put.

I know my family has a long history and many ties to Lathrop, but for me, a lot of those ties are painful, annoying and really have very little to do with who I am. I wish God would just pick me up and plant me somewhere else. Like Belarus, Ukraine or Russia!! I spent 2 weeks in that area about 10 years ago and absolutely fell in love with the people, countryside and mission work I was doing. I'd been to many areas of the world, but never felt so at home and in love with the people. After returning home, I did some digging and found that my mother's ancestors were from those areas. Maybe that's why I felt so at home?

I've been dreaming of returning, praying God would direct my path and I have now found information about a mission that is all Russia! It's called simply! Russian Missions. One of the people involved with this spent time in Missouri at the Midwestern Baptist Seminary in KC and is a Russian native. Pastor Vitali Yuchkovski has a newsletter and there is a website. They have a mission group going in October, but I'm not sure if I and Lawrence are meant to go. Praying about that.

I don't know how I got off on that, but I'll come back to our day to day activites. So I'm battling some demons at work, getting Lauren ready to go to college, continuing to learn what makes a good marriage, reading a lot of books, trying to spend more time reaching out to others, rather than caccooning myself at home, and eat right! To have peace of mind really does take meditation, determination and purpose of heart. Our lives are so bombarded with stimuli that is worthless.........it's no wonder people have quit using their brains and just do whatever feels good!
So turn off the t.v., loud music and computers.........and turn on some quiet music or no noise at all, and let God permeate your thoughts. He loves to love us, and give us his peace..........if we'll just stop long enough to let Him.

Have a wonderful day, pray for me and know I'm praying as well.